I just need relationship/life help... =/ (seriously please)?

I'm a 19 year old nursing student from Baltimore. I have been going out with this amazing boy who I'm madly in love with for well over a year now and I have never been so close to anyone in my life.He is sooo handsome and talented and thoughtful I have THE funnest times with him and I truly want to be his wife one day.



Unfortunately these last couple months have been rough on me. My parents were unable to pay their morgages, we almost lost the house. I was using the little money I got from my parttime job to pay for my books and groceries (my fridge is always empty) so I couldnt even help. My dad is the kindest man I have ever known when, and although he attends AA meetings he suffers from alcoholism and becomes a total son-of-a-***** every now and then blows our money. They decide they want to move to South Carolina because Baltimore is getting dangerous around my area. Four people I know around here have been robbed at gunpoint within the last 6 months. It's scary to think about but I'm getting straight A's at my University and am on the Dean's list and THANKFULLY no longer have to pay for college because of academic grants.



I want to keep going to school and I don't want to leave my boyfriend. I'll miss my parents when they move but my two older brothers will be staying in Baltimore as well and I know I wouldn't be able to stay away from them either.



Anyway...I have been really stressed over finals and I didn't have those grants last two semesters so I had to go take out a student loan on my own because my parents are clueless on what to do (which I don't blame them for). I have worked at the same shitty restaurant for 4 years cos I don't have a car and its two blocks from my house.



To finally get to the point [sorry] I have been taking my boyfriend for granted lately. I have been so stressed and I just havent been myself. Its either I'm the happiest person or the most depressed person and I really hope I'm not bipolar or some ****. On monday I completely flipped out on him and punched him in the face (suuuuch a horrible thing to do to someone you love =[ ) and it was escalated from a stupid argument. I'm gonna be a nurse soon I would never want to hurt anyone, especially the best friend I've ever had. Jimmy and I spend pretty much every night together and smoke some herb and chill and have so much fun and I sleep with him at his house every night. But after I did that Monday he told me he didn't want anything to do with me. I went into work so upset and the night went by soo slow. I had to take Nyquil to get to sleep so I'd stop crying since I had school in the morning (thats prob not a good thing?) Then on tues night after I blew up his phone all day freaking out cos I thought he hated me, he said he wanted to be with me still but he didn't want to see me since he was so upset, which I definitely understand...But I still haven't seen him and he has been acting really mysterious and different everytime i talk to him. Every time I call him now, he always gets a call on the other line, and he never says more than three words at a time. He's being really cold, I know that no one deserves to be abused like that but he knows I'm going through a lot right now and I'm soo lonely without him. idk what to do.



some helpful advice would be immensely appreciated =)I just need relationship/life help... =/ (seriously please)?
Oh its a long. sad, stressful story, u seem to be a good student, caring and loving. I wish I could do more than u deserve but I am really far from u BUT I pray for u for ur success in ur career and a very happy life with ur beloved one.I just need relationship/life help... =/ (seriously please)?
What you need to do is to get your priorities in order. Mine would look something like this...

God...

Myself.

My job.

My education.

My boyfriend.

You can figure out the rest.



Now then, you are spending way too much time with your boyfriend and you shouldn't be sleeping with him. You didn't say if you are sexually intimate; if you are, then why aren't you married? You shouldn't see him more than 3 or 4 times a week; if he wants to see you more often than that, then get married. The stress is caused by being under so much pressure to achieve and juggle the academic pursuits, hold down a full time job, make time for your boyfriend, etc., etc. I hope you make the right choices and get your priorities in the right order.